Merry Christmas Charlie Brown

I’m sitting here on the couch watching A Charlie Brown Christmas on TV – an old, childhood favourite. Suddenly, it donned on me. I AM CHARLIE BROWN.

Charlie Brown: I think there must be something wrong with me, Linus. Christmas is coming, but I’m not happy. I don’t feel the way I’m supposed to feel. I just don’t understand Christmas, I guess. I like getting presents and sending Christmas cards and decorating trees and all that, but I’m still not happy. I always end up feeling depressed.

Linus: Charlie Brown, you’re the only person I know who can take a wonderful season like Christmas and turn it into a problem.

AMAZING how a cartoon character can summarize exactly what I’m feeling at this exact point in time. Thank you Charles Schulz.

Christmas is tough when you’re single. There’s just no getting around it, really. I used to really love Christmas. I was one of those ‘annoying’ people who played Christmas carols 24/7, couldn’t wait to decorate, and would start the Christmas countdown in November. As I’ve gotten older, the holiday build-up and excitement has slowly started to wain, and now I just find the whole thing too emotionally draining. I can’t blame it on the singleness alone – I think that as we get older, that whole ‘magic’ of Christmas tends to fade a bit, but being lonely certainly doesn’t help. And I am lonely.

Here’s a question. Why are the most emotionally difficult holidays all grouped together? Christmas, New Year’s, Valentine’s Day, and for me, my birthday. BRUTAL. When you’re single, you can’t not feel alone when everyone around you is happily in love and enjoying the holidays with significant others. I even find it difficult to enjoy time with family over the holidays because I am now the only grandchild on both sides of my family who is STILL single (with lots of cousins). I HATE that this is what I inevitably end up focusing on this time of year, but it’s like everything I do and everywhere I go, I’m reminded of the fact that I’m alone. I’m lucky to have friends and family, and I know many people don’t. But at the same time, I find it so easy to feel lonely in a crowded room these days…

Do any of you single folks out there agree with me that the regularity of the holidays is part of what makes it so hard year, after year? Each of these holi-days is an anniversary of the ones before. So inevitably, I find myself thinking about where I’m going to be at this time next year, and where I was at this time last year – and year, after year I find myself hoping that 365 days from now, I will have someone special in my life to share the holidays with. Six years running, I have been disappointed. I find it hard to stay positive…

Keeping me going are my plans for New Year’s. Although my European trip fell through (VERY long story that ended in a canceled flight with a $450 cancellation fee), my friend JD and I decided to stay a little closer to home and booked a 3-day trip to Quebec City; the “Europe” of Canada 🙂 I am torn about missing the annual party at B&C’s as I missed it last year as well. But, I’m not emotionally strong enough to handle it at this point in time and as much as I will miss the party and all my friends there, I’m looking forward to celebrating New Year’s with a great friend.

Despite this ‘pity party’ post (and I realize it IS just that, but that’s why I created this blog for ME), I am going to do my very best to work on keeping myself happy this holiday season, as was reminded by my fellow blogger Mel. In the mean time, I’ll leave you with this little thought from my Charlie Brown friend, Linus:

“I never thought it was such a bad little tree. It’s not bad at all, really. Maybe it just needs a little love.”


5 Responses to “Merry Christmas Charlie Brown”

  1. 1 Mel
    December 16, 2009 at 12:00 pm

    Awwwww. Chin up Charlie Brown. Have a blast in Quebec City – I bet it will do you good!! 2010 will be a great year!!

  2. 2 Jenn
    December 16, 2009 at 2:01 pm

    Christmas and the Holiday Season are hard times to be single. I know this first hand..but I’ve gotten through them a little easier by thinking of things that make it not so bad to be single.
    For example, I can pick where I want to go on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, anything basically because its me, myself and I that I have to worry about. I don’t have to go to my boyfriends family’s Christmas or anything else that they may traditionally do. I do what I want to do. I also do a lot of volunteer work to keep myself busy and the other day i was thinking that if I weren’t single, I wouldn’t have as much time to spend making things a little better for others.
    These thoughts don’t solve the bigger issue of singlehood but do make it a little sunnier along the way.

  3. December 16, 2009 at 8:50 pm

    Thanks Mel – I think it will do me good too 🙂

    Jenn: Thanks for sharing – there are definitely some advantages, you’re right. What a great perspective on volunteer work and a great idea for staying occupied during the holidays…

  4. 4 Niecey C
    December 17, 2009 at 8:50 pm

    Cute post. Don’t u just love it when u get messages that speak to u from the most unsuspected places (i.e. cartoons). Yunno, I myself have been so busy that I haven’t even had time to think about being single. And u kno what part of me feels that having “that special sum1” in your life, doesn’t come close to equaling a happy, joyous holiday season. And it’s an old saying but a true one none the less “everything that glitters isn’t gold” and all those relationships u see around u are loaded with problems that u don’t have to worry about as a single person!! SO celebrate. I kno it’s easier said than done. So its okay to go thru this phase, because that’s just what it is a phase.

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